Bahagiaa sungguh dengan fake relationship tuhh… seronokkk ohhh.. but 2 weeks after that on the same day (rabu) .. I keluar berjimba2 dengan membe2 I kat Jitra Mall, Kedah s0 I x online laa that day.. suddenly Mah call I..
Mah: hang kat mna?? Online x??
Me: aku kat mall dengan membe2 aku.. x online pun knapa??
Mah: eerrrmmm… ** **** ada cakap apa2 x kat hang?? Dia text hang x??
Me: x cakap apa pun.. awatnya?? Bagitau jee laa..
Mah: eeerrrmmmmm………….. Dia dah ada girlfriend……
Me: WHAT?????????!!!!!!!!!!! GIRLFRIEND???????????????????????????? Hang biaq betoi???? Mana hang tau???? Hang jangan main2……………………
Mah: Sumpah weyh.. aku x main2.. dia dah buang relationship hampa.. dia buat relationship dengan pompuan tuhhh…
Me: seriously???? Sampai hati dia buat ak macam nie… sapa pompuan tuhh?? Aku kenai x??
Mah: ha serius! Hang ingat x hang penah cakap kat aku ada pompuan dok komen kat status dia… pompuan tuhh laa…
Me: oh my GOD.. awat dia buat aku macam nie??? Sedihhh gilaaaa aarrrrrrhhhh….. x pe la mah.. thank sebab bagitau…
Mah: hang ok ke nie?? Sorry laa ak xtau kata dia nak buat macam nie… sat aku sound dia..
Me: ok jaa.. L L L xpa la nak buat macam mana…. Ehhh..x payah laa nak sound2.. dia bukan buat salah pun.. kami memang x ada apa2 hbungan pun…. K lahh.. aku x ada mood nie.. kbaii
Seriously??? I mean like seriously???????? How could this happen???? Lynn help me…. Huhuhuhuhu… masa tuh I memang down gila kott… rasa macam nak nangis je !! sampai hati diaaa…. I teruss x ada mood.. time tuhh plak membe2 I tgah karoke.. nyanyi lagu2 jiwang plakk.. lagi laa I sedihh…. Masa tuhh Lyn sorang je yang faham perasaan i… Membe2 semua pelikk.. tadi ok pas tuhh tiba2 x ada mood.. huhu.. sorry girls I x boleh bagitau uolls.. L
Time balik tuhh I drive coz suma dah letihh n malas nak drive.. So I pun drive laa sebab dengan perasaan yang “macam nie” agak mustahil untuk I tido… Masa tengah drive tuhh my mind was totally full of him !! sampai hati dia x bagitau i.. at least let me know that u already have someone else… kan?? I can’t stop thinking about him… sampai meleleh air mata…huhu.. nasib baik diorang suma tido s0 no one knew that I was crying… I keep told my self that he’s NOT MINE !! pujuk diri sendiri… I drive lajuuuu coz nak cepat sampai and nak online..
Sampai jee hostel I x fikir apa dah… I just wanna see him with his real RELATIONSHIP with that girl!!!! Takottt sangat nak bukak fb… x dapat nak terima kenyataan yang our fake relationship already ended… tabahkan kan hati bukak jugakkk…! It’s true…. He’s not in a relationship with me anymore!! Frustrated!!! That’s what I feel right know… eeerrrrmmm…malu sangat dengan membe2 cause diorang x tahu pasal fake relationship tuhh.. they thought the relationship was real… except my sweet siblings.. I paksa jugakk laa diri I nie untuk bukak wall dia… ‘ ** **** in a relationship with ****** ***** ‘ pedihhhh sangat bila I tengok status dia… sakitt hatiii gilaaa kottt… damn it!! What’s that she have that I don’t????? tell me!!!! I’m totally fucking frustrated… sedihhhhhhhhhhhh sangattt… L I felt the pain even more when I read their ‘loveydovey’ comments…exchanging I love you’s…. pppffttttt… they seem very happy and full with blessing…
My sweet siblings who always be there for me keep telling me to be strong.. maybe he was not meant to be with me…. Thank you girls for ur support…. Ok, the next thing I wanna do is forget him…
::::::::::to be continued::::::::::
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